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Stuck in Paris with nowhere to go – The…

Brian Gaherty happened to mention to one of his fellow Red Lion members that while on holiday in Paris a couple of months ago he developed an alter ego. This was a mistake because he was ordered to spill the beans in an article for Roar!

One thing about suffering from any sort of bowel disease is that you tend to lose all sense of shyness in telling others about problems “down there”, but in Paris I was to take this one stage further.

There is a lot of talk about equality, but in Paris, ladies, this just isn’t true. I know, because in the toilets of those famous bars and cafes you get the proper pedestal jobs while we men are often faced with the simple hole in the ground.

For those of you that have never seen one, how can I describe them. Well for starters imagine seeing a hole in the ground the size of a dinner plate with the imprints of a pair of size 20 feet facing you – that’s an old fashioned French toilet.

Or let me put it another way: it rather looks like someone has done a midnight flit with the toilet and I half expect the police to burst in to take plaster-casts of the footprints left behind.

In the days pre pouch I would use them with the best of them, crouched over the whole with my feet lost in those footprints, tense with the anticipation of hearing the plaintive cry of the last intrepid person to use it welling up from below.

Out I would walk to the sound of squelching feet from the footwear sodden by the tidal wave that results from the flush, back into the bar to listen to the French saying “There goes another Englishman who fell for the old ‘let him use the old hole in the ground rather than that new toilet you installed for us’ ploy…”

Happy days – but that was before I developed a scatter-gun approach to pebble dashing the porcelain and so I have succumbed to my alter ego, who I would suspect the Sun to term “loony uses Ladies Loos”.
Of course, this being France, it is not as big a deal as sneaking into the Ladies in the UK. Often you find that the ladies and gents share the same entrance way, usually with the men’s urinal in the foyer next to the wash basin.

My favourite bar at least separates the urinal with a pair of saloon doors so that you can throw in an entrance fit for the climax to High Noon, and it is handy being able to continue your conversation without any interruptions for your call of nature.

So, back to my last visit to Paris, and after several visits to prospective bars for a drink and bite to eat, only to leave after a whispered “it’s a hole” and having given up on finding a bar where the loo-nappers had not preceded me, I gave in to my alter ego and sidled into the Ladies for the first time and never looked back.
I haven’t seen any reports in the local press yet about a woman being shocked to find a man coming out of their loo but there’s time yet. In the meantime does anyone know the French for “I can explain officer”?

Three Ops and a Baby

Jo Driver found that ulcerative colitis was an  unexpected precursor to motherhood.

I was ten weeks’ pregnant when I had my first – and last – attack of colitis. Not content with having the usual morning sickness, indigestion, backache etc, I decided to be more dramatic!

However, having the colitis and the subsequent sub-total colectomy and ileostomy (at 12 weeks’ pregnant!) certainly prepared me for motherhood. Getting up numerous times in the night to go to the toilet was good training for the sleepless nights to come. Emptying my bag made changing nappies seem like child’s play.
There were other advantages, too. Of course, I had no piles or constipation to worry about. Plus I avoided the condescending pats on the stomach, because people were too afraid to touch something embarrassing! And no messy “accidents” at the birth, no worry afterwards about straining and bursting my stitches (mothers will know what I’m talking about here). I was also complimented on how clean my stitches were – strange, that!

Of course, there were some disadvantages: having to wear a garish, patterned pink, gold and green maternity swimming costume to “hide” my bag; having to have an indecently long stoma so that I could see it over my bump (I felt like a hermaphrodite!); best of all was having a bowel obstruction at 7 months’ pregnant , and being told I was in premature labour! I have to say, labour was less painful. Still, they gave me lots of entonox for the pain – highly recommended, or should I say a recommended high?! Obstetricians, midwives, delivery suite, scans – I don’t know – all that fuss for baby muesli….. Premature labour, my foot.
Anyway, back to my attack of colitis at ten weeks’ pregnant. To avoid puncturing my colon, it was decided after two weeks that I should have the operation. I christened my stoma George. The nurses were pleased at his arrival – they were all starting to get severe RSI from writing details on my stool chart.

George was very well behaved, unlike the stoma I had after my next op, the temporary loop ileostomy and formation of my pouch. I called him George II, although I think George III would have been more appropriate, as he was completely mad.

He would have outbursts in public – he didn’t care where: backs of taxis, barbecues, friends’ sofas, an Indian restaurant. That last one was the best – I had already used up my spare bag and I was miles from home. I decided that to avoid needing a skin graft, I’d better get to the nearest A&E (which, in my case, stands for Accidents and Effluence). Of course, I wasn’t really a priority on a busy Saturday night and resorted to sitting on a pile of magazines to soak up my “homemade curry” (I sat on a pile of Hello! magazines, on the grounds that what was coming out of my stoma would blend in nicely…).

Eventually, after a few hours (ouch!), I was taken to a room and shown a range of bags. I’d pull the curtain and try one on – no good, next please and what about shoes to match? They were all colostomy bags, but better than nothing. My poor husband had to drive from Enfield to Penge in the middle of the night, stopping off at shops on the way for bottles of water – he needed them to dilute his alcohol content, because he hadn’t planned on driving, and I don’t need to tell you what I needed them for. Poor George, it wasn’t his fault – he was just a funny shape and very close to my skin. And of course, it was all worth it in the end. But I must admit, I started making so many deposits, I thought I’d been reincarnated as a pigeon.
Conversely, my pouch has been impeccably behaved. Apart from getting an infection after its formation, and therefore not leaving St Marks until Christmas Eve – I’ll go to any lengths to get my husband to cook Christmas dinner! – my pouch has been wonderful. As are Mr Nicholls and his team; all the stoma nurses that looked after me; Mr Swift and Mr Hurley, and their teams from the Mayday in Croyden, and Mr Theodossi and his team from the same hospital. Oh, and of course Mr Clarkson, my obstetrician, who must have spent a few nerve-wracking hours overseeing my colectomy.

Yes, I’m glad I didn’t decide to become an eternal ostomist. OK, so I need soundproofing on my bathroom walls; my homemade curry results in  “Poucho Marks”  on the sheets (so strictly for when I’m on my own), and I’m buying shares in Sudocrem. But I made the right choice.

So if having an ileostomy isn’t your bag and you want to start using those bendy bag closures as freezer bag ties (very handy), go for it if you can. You don’t have anything to lose, apart from a few months off work! Blast the resulting itchiness…BOTTOMS UP!

By the way, my pregnancy went smoothly after my blip at 7 months and I gave birth naturally to a beautiful baby girl ( naturally to a girl – they’re stronger in the womb!). She’s now five and a half, with gorgeous red curly hair and blue grey eyes. Sally Louise, you were worth every bit of my story, and thank God for making you so strong…

Pouch Pioneer

Hannah Barrow has had her Kock pouch since 1972. She was born in 1914, and this was just about the very first Kock pouch operation in the UK, so she was a bit of a guinea pig. But she was so ill it was a risk worth taking.

I was born in 1914 in the small market town of Congleton. The two main streets were full of large and small shops, all owned by local people. We had three cinemas and three dances a week. These days, there is nothing for young people to do.

I started work at 14 years old, as a machinist in one of the many textile mills, mostly producing football and rugby shirts. In the winter, orders were very few, so we worked one week and the following week were on the dole. The week benefit was paid, we were compelled to attend night school to learn shorthand. I don’t know what that did for us!

I was on piece work. You earned your own money. Sometimes we would sit at our machine waiting for work from 7.30am till 6pm and go home without earning a single penny. Still, we had some good times and it was lovely countryside around Congleton.

My husband died 14 years ago and I have one son, Robert. My first husband, Rob’s Dad, died of cancer when Rob was five years old. They were hard times then with no extra allowances. I could not work, as Rob had severe asthma (there were no inhalers then).

In 1970 I discovered I had ulcerative colitis. My doctor sent me to Macclesfield Hospital for tests at the clinic. We only have a small hospital in Congleton. After a few months, I was discharged, without having seen the consultant. I weighed just 5 stone and I never went into what they now call remission. I was very ill.

My GP was wonderful. He asked me if I would go to the London Middlesex Hospital. For the following two weeks I stayed at our local hospital. The only treatment was codeine phosphate (60 mg). I then travelled to Crewe railway station by ambulance, which is just 12 miles from my home. I will not ever forget that rail journey. My husband and sister were with me, and I was met at Euston station by an ambulance.

I stayed at the Middlesex for five months for treatment. You were not told what that was in 1970. I did not improve, so a colostomy was the next step (resting the colon, hoping that the ulcers would heal).

I had a terrible time at home with leaks and blood coming from the colostomy, feeling ill. Early in 1972, I was back again at the Middlesex for another operation. Even in 1972 there was no explanation about the operation. I was just told that I would not use a bag. I had two consultants: Mr Cameron for the pouch and Mr Slack for the rectum (a valve was not used at that early time).

Of course, I was terribly ill and it was a big operation. When I was a little stronger and the pouch had started working, this was the time I had to learn to use the catheter. Sister and the nurses did not know how to do it, so Mr Cameron, doctor and sister took me to the bathroom to learn how to empty the pouch. Thinking back, what surprises me was that I did it without being embarrassed. Probably, I did it more by luck than judgement.

The problem was how to get some sleep without using the catheter, so the doctor came at night to put the catheter in the pouch, packed it round with cotton wool to hold it in and then attached it to a urine bag! Very cosy that was, until I needed to spend a penny.

The nurse would not give me a bedpan, as I was getting up in the daytime, but insisted I got out of bed. I could not wait any longer, so out of bed I got. Calamity! Out came the catheter and what a mess there was on the floor! I can laugh about it now, but I was devastated at the time. Then the nurse shouted at me! I cried all the rest of the night, and the doctor came and packed me up again. I really wanted to go home.

This was Tuesday, and there were no visitors until Saturday. Mr Cameron was on holiday for a few days at home, but the doctor called him in the next morning to talk to me. I can understand how it looked to some of the nurses and patients: it was a first time operation, and I was having a lot of attention. Mr Cameron and the doctors were in every day, to see how I was progressing and of course it created a lot of interest amongst the other medical staff.

After 3 months, I came home again. In the following weeks, there were things to worry me but my doctor sorted it out for me. He was so good to me. He even went to London to ask Mr Cameron all about my operation. I was having a lot of leaks, which upset me. Two years later, I went back to London again for the valve to be fitted and stayed in six weeks.

I had just one checkup afterwards. Instead, Mr Cameron used to talk to me on my sister’s phone. I still had leaks, but did not use a bag. Mr Cameron left the Middlesex later in the year. My wonderful doctor retired 16 years ago. I am still with the same surgery (sorry, medical centre!). It is a two doctor practice, but they don’t know about pouches.

I asked, if anything went wrong with the pouch, which hospital I would be sent to. The lady doctor said Whythanshaw Manchester, which is not too far away from my home. I hope they have done a pouch there, because I feel very strongly about GPs who don’t know anything about pouches, have a patient with one but don’t bother to find out about it.

In the year coming up to 2000, I cannot say that things have improved for me, except for the arrival of the Red Lion Group. Since my doctor retired, I have no personal support. I can’t express in words what a help the Red Lion Group has been to me.

My pouch leaks when the time comes to cook or eat a meal. I could empty it before this time, but when I have eaten it leaks again. That would mean using the catheter 8 or 9 times a day. I take codeine phosphate (15 mg) at bedtime, which keeps me continent during the night. I can’t use them during the day as they make me too solid for the catheter to work.
Now I am nearly 86 years old, I do what is best for myself and use a Surgicare pouch. Although I have a flush stoma, the flange is fine, no leaks underneath it, so I use the catheter 4 or 5 times a day.

I live alone in a sheltered bungalow, and do my own housework and cooking. I can’t walk any distance because I now have osteoporosis in the spine, which is bent. I also have arthritis. My sister takes me to the shops but I push the trolley around and shop for myself. I am able to write, and have a very active mind.

I have never had a car. I have had two falls fracturing both shoulders but I still managed the catheter. The doctor calls me frail, but I don’t know about that!

During my illness, my husband went to work, shopped, did the housework and visited me on Saturdays. Robert sat A levels when he was 17 years old and went to Warwick University, where he stayed for just two weeks before coming home. He went to work in an Accounts office until he was 18, then went to do an honours degree in computing science as a day student at Stafford. I was in hospital most of this time.

Rob worked for ICL as a management consultant, and ten years ago the sales manager and he started a business of their own in Congleton, which has now done very well: they have floated the company and since bought a computing business in the USA, where they also have an office (as well as one in Denmark).

Things seem to have come full circle now. The mills where I used to work are now offices. They have been renovated, and the outsides are the same as they were all those years ago. Rob and Steve’s company have one floor. I have been in the mill and they have kept the stone walls like they were when I worked there back in 1928. Now, of course, it is fashionable!

My Story…by Judith Harris

In 1980, I had the first symptoms of UC, but it remained undiagnosed for the next three years, until I became very ill in Malta while on holiday. Back in England and after extensive tests, the cause of the trouble was revealed, much to my relief.

For the next five years, I remained well, with six monthly checkups and Asacol tablets. Throughout this time, I continued to work as a chef whilst attending my local hospital.

1988 saw the birth of our much longed for son. Unfortunately, when he was twenty months old, the UC came back with a vengeance, and over the next year my condition gradually deteriorated. I had steroid enemas, oral steroids and any other amount of drugs, all to no avail.

I now felt so ill that I begged the local hospital to operate on me, even if it meant having an ileostomy. I was continually fobbed off with various excuses as to why I should not have an operation.

The pouch operation was mentioned during this time, and the local stoma nurse put me into contact with someone who had already undergone a pouch operation. He was a mine of information and told me about Mr Nicholls of St Marks, the surgeon who had performed his operation. I asked at my local hospital to be referred to St Marks, but was fobbed off yet again.

Fortunately, my husband had private health cover for the family with his job, so we made an appointment to see Mr Nicholls at his private practice. By this time, I was very ill. After I saw Mr Nicholls, I had the operation to remove my colon within the week. I was too ill to have the pouch made at the time of the first operation.

Over the next three months, I gradually gained weight, came off all the steroid treatments and learned to cope with a temporary ileostomy. I had the pouch fashioned by Mr Nicholls, again in a private hospital in London. Stage two was a very tough operation to get over. I felt very poorly for the next seven weeks until I had stage three (closure of ileostomy).

It took months to get over all the surgery. In the early years I had the same problems as everybody else: sore skin, frequent trips to the loo and bowel obstructions. I sometimes wondered if it had all been worth it.
There was no Red Lion Group then, and not a lot of information to be had. I had a couple of contacts I made myself with other pouch patients, and I collected all the information I could relating to my condition and operations.

Nine years further down the road, I am very glad that I have had the operation. The pouch has settled, I go to the loo five times in twenty-four hours and do not need any drugs at all. My one big problem however is that I have had seven small bowel obstructions due to adhesions. Thankfully, these have all settled in hospital without the need to be operated on again. My last one was two years ago and – fingers crossed – it will not happen again. I have had a few bouts of fairly mild pouchitis, which have cleared up with a course of Flagyl.

I now have an active life, walking, cycling and generally enjoying myself. My diet is not too restricted: I can eat most things, but usually have several small meals a day. I find herbal tea very soothing, especially camomile, peppermint and ginger (all made by Twinings). I even managed to work again as a chef, but at the moment I am not working.

One major drawback was the lack of counselling for my husband and son. A situation that I feel has still not been addressed enough.

I am sure that this is all very familiar to UC and pouch patients everywhere. I find that my best course of action is to keep optimistic and to keep my sense of humour when things go wrong. I try to relax as much as possible, as stress makes my bowel problems worse. Things do get better in time, and I now thank God that I am alive. I look at my son who is nearly twelve and remember the times when I did not think I would live to see his third birthday.

I am now an outpatient of St Marks where I go for annual checkups. This hospital specialising in bowel problems really is a “Centre of Excellence”.

A Friend in Need is a Friend Indeed

Jean writes about how the Red Lion Group helped her find out more about the pouch operation.

In the month of June 1998 I had non-stop diarrhoea and bleeding from the rectum. After days of no appointment available at my doctor’s, I asked my daughter to drive me to the local hospital, where the duty doctor admitted me saying I had ulcerative colitis.

“What happens now?” I asked. He told me they would give me a course of different kinds of medication to see if they could improve my situation and monitor my bowel movements.

What a humiliating business that was, having to inform the nurse each time I had a bowel movement, which was – I might add – duly inspected, discussed at length and details then entered on my medical notes.

The weeks went by, my weight dropped to 7 stone, I had three blood transfusions, I was losing my hair, the pain was unbelievable. And there was no improvement in my ulcerative colitis.

I then had a visit to my “bed space” by five men in white coats informing me that they had tried all possible ways of treating the condition with medication, but to no avail. My only option, they told me, to ultimately save my life and render me free of pain, was surgery. This involved fitting a “bag”, until a reversal might be possible in a few months’ time when my health was much improved. I signed the relevant forms and the ileostomy was performed in August 1998.

Out of hospital, months later, I was much better, and on my second visit to my surgeon, I discussed with him the possibility of me having a pouch operation.

His advice was very wise: “You realise you will never be the same. There could be leakage to deal with and other minor problems. Go away, make enquiries, read about it, do your homework and then come back to see me.”

Help! I could not find anybody that had had the first op, let alone the second. I badgered my friends, read everything I could lay my hands on relating to it, made lots of phone calls, and was a general pest to one and all.

My stoma nurse sent me a magazine called Roar! I rang the Chairman’s number and spoke to him and his wife Morag, two extremely nice people (Ed: I promise I did not put this compliment in myself!), who were able to help with some of my questions. I have since joined the Red Lion Group as a member. My nurse also told me she had spoken to a Mr David Irving-James, also from the Red Lion Group, who would be willing to speak to me in connection with my operation.

I rang David, mentioned my nurse, and asked him if he knew of anyone who had had the pouch operation, as I was doing my homework prior to seeing my specialist. Well, David could not have been nicer. He sensed my unease, and by the time the conversation was almost at an end, I was made to feel like a long lost friend. He offered to visit me at my house, which he duly did 3 days later. He brought along with him a lady called Gill Hawkes, who had her pouch op in September last year.

Between them, they answered all my questions honestly, allayed my fears and provided some very relevant and useful information. David also advised me to get the best person for the operation if possible. I told him I was going to tell my consultant that I had done my homework and wanted to go to St Marks to have Professor Nicholls perform my operation. Both my visitors laughed because they too were under St Marks.

Before this article is published, I will have been to St Marks to see Professor Nicholls. I am not “out of the woods” yet. I may be rejected for the operation, but I do not wish to end on a negative note. If at the end of the day my stoma has to stay, then so be it. My stoma gave me back my life, and wonderful people like David and Gill are on the end of the telephone willing you to enjoy every aspect of it.

In 1999 David Irving-James wrote:

I am sure a number of you can relate to Jean’s story and I hope that this article brings home to readers the importance of having capable and willing members who are available within the regions to help those who are considering pouch surgery.

It is a big leap into the unknown, especially for someone whose stoma works very well: exchanging a known acceptable quality of life for an unknown quantity is not an easy decision to take, as many of us know.

The advice, support and views from an existing pouch owner are so valuable to a person facing a decision that will affect the rest of their life. Of course, it is important to remember that everyone’s experience is different, and no potential patient should be given the impression that what has happened to one pouch owner will happen to them. Nonetheless, the more people’s experience they hear, the better able they will be to make an informed decision.

I am pleased to say that Jean has now heard that her pouch operation will be going ahead soon, hopefully before the end of the year.

Airbags and Seatbelts

Among other things, Bill Shepherd tells us how doing what you enjoy can help keep you off the toilet!

Having recently had my pouch operation, I applied for a Radar key so that I could use the disabled toilets if necessary. I should point out that the key is quite large, and I find it useful to wear it on a tape around the neck.

As of yet, I have not had to use it, but on behalf of our group checked out a number of disabled toilets both locally in Hertfordshire and in North Wales. Only one failed to meet a very high standard.

I am normally employed as a lorry driver, and returned to work (“light duties”) in August. Between lorry and car, I cover in excess of 80,000 miles a year, so the Radar key will give me real peace of mind.

I am hoping it will be a bit like airbags and seatbelts: I don’t want to test them for their purpose, but if I need them, I shall be really glad to have them!

I am of the opinion that if you are doing something you enjoy, your bowels, bag or pouch are not very active. In the 28 years that I have had ulcerative colitis, I have only had to stop three times in an unplanned, urgent, embarrassing way. I believe this is because I enjoy my job.

I also have another true story that illustrates my theory perfectly. Many years ago, I had an old school friend who commuted into London to work each morning to a job he did not enjoy.

He also had IBS. His journey each morning was about 18 miles on the train, but every morning he had to get off the train at three or four stops to use the toilets (any pouch owning commuter will tell you that the toilets on a commuter train are just not suitable for our needs!).

However, in his spare time, he was a tennis umpire at Wimbledon and other tournaments. Amazingly, he was never affected by urgency while on the court. I think it was because he enjoyed what he was doing, so he never gave his IBS a thought.

Perhaps there are Red Lion Group members who have problems controlling their bowels, and so have given up favourite hobbies because they are afraid of needing the toilet at an inappropriate time. I hope my friend’s story will give you the confidence to go back to doing something you enjoy.

Finally, I do have one worry, which other members may share. I do not feel in control on public transport, with inadequate (or no) toilets on most trains or needing to get off and on buses then paying again to get on the next one. For this reason, I like the security of my car, holding my spare underwear, trousers, wipes and other toilet equipment (back to the airbags and seatbelts again).

My worry is toll roads, first tested in Leicester and now in Leeds and Edinburgh. I think we should look at this early on, while the tests are still going on, for some sort of help or exemption from payment. Maybe a disabled sticker with a “T” on it for parking near toilets, and only near toilets. After all, if Radar recognises incontinence as a disability, why not?

Is This a Bag I See Before Me?

Gillian Appleby has no doubts about whether the pouch operation was worth it.

I can’t imagine my life without my pouch now. I have a recurring dream that I have a bag again but it is not meant to be in use, it’s just in case (!) and it is over my scar. But even though I have my pouch, the bag keeps filling up. I have had other horrible dreams of having a stoma and it is overworking and somehow I forget/can’t put the bag on it. All this proves how much I really fear ever having a bag again.

I love the fact I can look and touch my stomach without feeling something plastic on it. When I had my bag, I once went out with a really nice bloke, and when we were in bed (he didn’t know I had a bag at first) he said “What’s that, plastic?” and I said “No it’s my bag”. And as you can imagine, the room had an eerie silence to it for quite awhile.

Another quite amusing story is when I was at a party talking to a girl who said she had Crohn’s disease when she was a child but it had since never returned ( I have always wondered if this is possible). I was telling her I had had my colon taken out, emphasising the fact that all of it was gone. She said to me, “Well that’s horrible, but you know some people have to have a bag.” I actually did reply “Yeah I know, I have got one”. She either didn’t hear ( I did say it rather quietly) or she chose not to. The funny thing is that why did she think I DIDN’T have a bag? Maybe she thought she’d be able to see it if I did have one.

I always felt a high class freak with a bag, even if people couldn’t see it. and also the social taboo of being a little bit different to other people. But I didn’t want to feel any of this because if people can’t accept you the way you are, then it’s them that has the problem. But then again, it’s you that has the bag.

Anyway, most of all I am very grateful indeed to the wonders of technology and to my very clever and skilful surgeon, Mr MacDonald,  because I feel almost back to how I was before I ever had my colon out. I don’t feel such a freak and not having a bag stops me from thinking about the fact I don’t have a colon.

My Story…by Collette Bijoux

I suffered from UC from 1981 onwards. I had two severe attacks in 1982 and 1995, which resulted in my hospitalisation. However, high doses of steroids worked well for me, and I was out of hospital after 10 days.

I had a colonoscopy in 1997 which showed that my whole colon was affected by the UC and had shrunk to such an extent that the doctor performing the procedure was well into my ileum and took several biopsies from there before he realised the problem. I found the whole procedure extremely painful and distressing. I could even see the light of the scope shining through my abdomen! I was advised to have the pouch operation, and my appointment quickly came through to see the pouch surgeon.

I was given a date for my operation (May 1997). However, in the previous few weeks I had received literature from the Red Lion Group which contained stories from people whose operations had not been very successful. This, along with the fact that I was told the Merseyside rep, Blanche Farley, was wanting her pouch reversed to an ileostomy put me off. I told the surgeon I no longer wanted the op.I continued with my visits to Dr Walker, the gastroenterologist at Fazakerley Hospital in Liverpool. My health was not brilliant, but I think you get to a stage where you have felt awful for so long that you think it is normal.

However, in my job as a registered sick children’s nurse, I was working full time shifts. This meant I was finishing lates at 11 pm and starting again at 7 the next morning. By the time I got home and had to be up again at 5.30 am, I was exhausted. As you will all know, I would not be sleeping those few hours, but would be up 4 to 5 times to pass small amounts of blood-stained motions.

On my days off, I had to force myself to clean the house and all the other tasks involved with looking after a husband who works long hours and has on-call duties. And three teenage sons who eat for England!
During one of my clinic visits, I spoke to Dr Walker about the op again. He again wrote to the surgeon, Mr MacKie, and I was given an appointment to see him very quickly, in March 1998.

However, before I saw him, the stoma nurse Maureen Stoddart came to see me, and I expressed to her my fears about the pouch being as bad as the UC. She put me in touch with Jenny Dobson, who had the pouch procedure two years previously, and she completely changed my outlook. The pouch had improved her quality of life 100%.

I had the first stage of my pouch on 7 May 1998. The first 3 days were very painful. I have a very low blood pressure all the time, the nurse on duty on my first night post operatively thought it was the result of my epidural, and so switched it off! You can imagine the agony I was in, as I had been in theatre from 10 am until 7 pm that night. The nurse who had come with me to observe the op said her back was very sore with having had to stand so long.

The rest of my recovery was uneventful. I left hospital on 21 May with my ileostomy. I had a few problems with leakage, and was very happy when it was reversed on 30 July. I had no problems post operatively: no pain, and my bowels started working perfectly straight way, and I have had no problems since.

I still use the toilet frequently, but there is no urgency. After my op, I was asked by my stoma nurse to speak to others about this surgery, which I gladly did. However, the surgeon did not seem happy about this, as he said I might give a wrong impression about its success, and I was not asked again. I returned to full time work in November 1998.

Morag Gaherty wrote in 1999:

Collette’s story illustrates perfectly the fact that everyone is different in whether a pouch works for them, and this is the point that the surgeon was making. It is certainly true that everyone who shares their experience with a potential patient must stress that what has happened to them may be completely different from what happens to other people, in both good and bad ways.

However, it does seem a shame that this surgeon’s potential patients are maybe being given an unnecessarily bleak picture of pouch surgery by being prevented from speaking to successful pouch owners as well. Had Collette not shared her fears with her stoma nurse, she too would still be living with a quite unacceptable quality of life, for fear of the alternative.

Very occasionally, I receive comments that Roar! presents too negative a view of life with a pouch, and I know that a large proportion of our members have a far more positive experience of pouch surgery – indeed, some find it enables them to get on with their lives without ever having to think about the pouch.

We do have a policy of presenting life with a pouch “warts and all”, because the Red Lion Group is a resource for those weighing up the pros and cons of pouch surgery. However, we are limited in what we can publish by the material we receive from our members – and, if only those who have problems write to us, then it is difficult not to give the impression that all pouch owners do have problems.

Just because companies only have a Customer Complaints department, and not a Satisfied Customers department does not mean they don’t have lots of satisfied customers – it’s just that they don’t write in to say so!

What I am saying is this: if your pouch has improved your quality of life, please take the time to write to us and TELL US

My Story…by Dorothy Simpson

Dorothy had her pouch surgery (in 1986 and 1987) at St Marks City Road, with both stages performed by Prof Nicholls. She had had ulcerative colitis for more than 20 years.

I found the “Finding the Cause” article on the front page of Roar! (issue 14) most interesting because at the start of both my pregnancies I suffered from severe diarrhoea. After the first three months of my first pregnancy in 1963, this settled down with no further trouble.

However, with my second pregnancy, I had severe, constant diarrhoea which could not be studied or treated because of possible harm to the baby. The diarrhoea continued after the birth of my son in 1966, until I had lost a lot of weight and my GP became concerned.

Over the next 20 years, I suffered from pain and bleeding – all that goes with ulcerative colitis, plus erythema nodosum. I was a District Nursing Sister at that time (SRN), and had to retire from my work that I loved.

I had an ileo-rectal anastamosis in Sunderland, but continued to need frequent toileting. My two consultants got together to discuss this, and the upshot was that I was referred to St Marks.

I had surgery (a W pouch) performed there shortly afterwards, and eventually began to feel better. The worst part of the surgery – apart from the pain – was having an ileostomy. It made me feel degraded and depressed, and it leaked constantly. It was a thing I always said I’d never have!

About three years after my pouch surgery, I completed a 43 mile walk, non stop across the North Yorkshire Moors, the “Lyke Wake Walk”, and raised £100 for the Friends of St Marks. I completed it in 16 hours, and I’d do it again if I had the opportunity, even though I will be 61 at my next birthday.

I can’t compare my life now to what I was like before surgery. I could not walk as my joints were so swollen and painful. At one point, I was in a wheelchair. Now I am as active as when I was nursing. I’m having a few pouch problems at present, but these will be sorted.

I can honestly say that having a pouch was the best thing that happened to me during the worst years of my life.

My Story…by Buddug James

I did not suffer for very long with ulcerative colitis before being operated on. I became ill on the 8th August 1997. I had diarrhoea within half an hour of eating some gammon. This always stuck in the back of my mind and I was amazed when I read your article on food poisoning in Issue 14. However, I was diagnosed very quickly as having UC by my G.P. (within three weeks).

I was given steroids to take (both ends) for several months and did recover quite well until I had a horrific colonoscopy (if someone offered me a million pounds I seriously would not contemplate having it done to me again) .Then the UC returned immediately with a vengeance I was back on the steroids and numerous other tablets and creams.

To cut a long story short, by the beginning of January 1998, I was getting worse, totally depressed, in severe pain and desperate. I begged for an appointment at the hospital and tipped a carrier bag of tablets on the doctor’s desk and informed him that I was not going to take another tablet (I was on about 27 tablets a day). In the end, I do not think they knew what and how many tablets they were prescribing to me.

That afternoon I was admitted for the first time into hospital. They observed me for a week and gave me intravenous steroid by drip . It did not work. My colon was well and truly ‘cream-crackered’. I was told that it would have to be removed and that I would have a bag instead.

I had such mixed emotions – the main ones being fright and relief. Relief, that I would be better and fright of the unknown future – a bag of ‘poo’ stuck to my tummy. I felt as if was going to become deformed, and felt I was too young at 32 to be disfigured. I had my whole life ahead of me. But I had to be realistic in the thick of it all and realised sensibly that I could not carry on as I was (house-bound) and that this was my only option.

I was scared, very scared, and had so many questions. My surgeon was brilliant and answered all my questions and I owe him so much. I also owe a great deal to my family, especially my boyfriend (now my fiancé) and my mum. I do not think I could have come through this as well as I did without their tremendous support.

It all happened so quickly that I did not have time to speak to a fellow patient before my first op which was a great shame. One of the worst times however was having to wait a whole week after the op to see if I could have my stoma reversed. When the surgeon told me I would be able to have the reversal and have the pouch, I kissed him – I was that relieved. I was crying with joy.

I recovered really well and went back to work part-time in May and June. I was ready for op number 2 (pouch formation) on the 8th July (boyfriend’s birthday). I had an additional surgeon at this op. So this time I had two brilliant surgeons looking after me. It went well and I was out of hospital after 10 days.

I had managed to speak to a fellow pouchie before this op and he told me to be prepared for a difficult time between op 2 and 3. Boy was he right or was he right? For 3½ weeks I was constantly sick, could not eat and lost over a stone. I went down to 6½ stone and was so weak I could not get out of bed. Needless to say my recent scar was hurting like hell!

I was in and out of hospital trying to find out what was wrong. Eventually, it was discovered that my potassium levels were too low and this was cured by placing me on a drip. Whilst all this was going on I also became paralysed in the mouth. This was very frightening as I thought I had had a mini – stroke on top of everything else. The cause of this was eventually traced to the ‘Stematol’ injection to stop sickness. If this was not enough I also had major problems at this time with leaks.

This was my lowest point. I was supposed to have my 3rd and final op at the end of August but had to wait until the end of September because of this hiccup.

Since the 26th of September (date of op) my pouch and I have not looked back! No more incontinence and soiled knickers. No more pain. No more being house-bound. No more being frightened of what to eat/drink. No more depression. Instead, plenty of happiness and joy at being alive and living and living and living some more!

I went back to work last January (1999) part-time and have been full-time since March (1999). I have been seriously making up for lost time recently.

At this moment in time, looking back, it does not feel as if I have been through all of this. I knew what I had to go through, dealt with it and just went from one op to the next and eventually came out the other side. I do not know how I did it to be honest, but one thing I do know – I am glad I did.

One very important thing to remember is that even at your worst: “There is always someone else worse off than yourself”.

Another point I would like to add is that the help of a herbalist and reflexologist were an enormous boost to my recovery. The herbalist did wonders throughout helping me with my diet. I had two excellent surgeons, great family and friends supporting me. So anyone who is considering a pouch – GO FOR IT – you only live once. I would only be too willing to speak to anyone who wants advice/reassurance on the pouch op.

Finally, thanks to those ladies who responded to my request for advice on pregnancy recently. And let me wish everyone in the Red Lion Group a Happy New Millennium!